My Authentic Voice: Expanding the Sound Between Man and Woman

By: Z Paige Lerario, MD, NYS CRPA/CPS-p

May 2, 2022

Blog originally posted in:

Neurology Blogs, Voices: Lived Experience

Based on the original research article published in:

The Journal of Speech, Language, and Hearing Research

In collaboration with the team at New York University’s:

Acoustic Phonetics and Perception Lab

 

Nearly a decade ago, when I started to come out as transgender, I knew I had two major counts against me if my goal was to “pass” as a cisgender woman in society. One was my large skeletal size, and the other was my deep, natural voice.  At the time, I was too afraid to irreversibly change my biology with vocal feminization surgery. So, I was excited to find affordable vocal feminization services at NYU’s Speech-Language-Hearing Clinic in 2014. 

 

“We need more nonbinary voices speaking out publicly.”


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As a clinical resident in neurology, my paycheck barely covered the rent and utilities of my fourth-floor walkup apartment on the Upper East Side, which had twice more animals living in it than rooms.  Health care insurance coverage of medically necessary, transition-related expenses was not a privilege I had at the time. I paid low-fee, out-of-pocket expenses to meet confidentially with students supervised by expert speech pathologists for vocal feminization services. I remember begging them not to tell anyone that I went there, since I worked frequently with speech pathologists in New York City as part of my job as a neurologist. The care and compassion I received in this clinic remains some of the best treatment I have received by any healthcare provider during my transition. They say you “get what you pay for,” but I think health care too often overlooks the healing value of providing an affirming environment to patients from historically oppressed communities. 

At the time, I was in intense denial of my transgender identity, and I dared not use the word “transgender” out loud in my sessions. Nevertheless, I was encouraged gently to explore my physical and vocal femininity, and I was thanked for my presence and authenticity. There were support groups with others at similar points in their transitions who were also struggling with their vocal identity.  I even wore some makeup and women’s jeans during one of my sessions.

The most intense gender euphoria I experienced during my transition came in a letter from this clinic describing my semester performance achievements. The first sentence described me as a “transgender woman.” I felt these words made my existence real for the first time ever. Although I had never used these words myself, this report from my assigned speech pathologist had provided me with the permission to be myself. Still to this day, I never allowed another person to read this letter. At the time, I was too afraid that if someone invalidated this experience, I wouldn’t have the confidence to come out and transition. Today, I know no one can take my identity away from me, but I keep that letter to myself, proof that I owe no one of my existence.

Another important lesson that I learned at NYU is how disabling and life-limiting a masculine voice can be for some transfeminine speakers. My masculine voice seemingly gives permission to others to question my existence. Male puberty poisoned my larynx, and feminizing hormones could not restructure my misshapen vocal organ. As my body changed with hundreds of thousands of dollars of doctor’s visits, medications, and surgeries, my natural speaking voice remained the same as before my transition, without dedicated intervention. I felt like my voice was no longer mine, and the dissonance between my speech and physical appearance became apparent. 

If I chose to use the phone, I either allowed myself to be misgendered and unseen, or I risked outing myself and the resultant discrimination that follows. Therefore, I stopped using the phone whenever I could.

When I publicly spoke or met a new person, I needed to make a quick judgement as to the safety of using my natural voice or manipulating my vocal gender expression to match my physical appearance. This is an exhausting exercise, and I often made mistakes on who was safe to trust when revealing my gender identity. The process of coming out never ends.

I dare not use my natural voice at airport security or in geographic regions that delegitimize the existence of transgender identities. These situations could pose threats to my human rights or physical safety.  Although my identity is nonbinary, and therefore “passing” is not a goal of mine, I acknowledge that in many spaces being visibly or audibly gender nonconforming can be dangerous emotionally and physically. I hope safety for the transgender community improves, but on the Transgender Day of Remembrance, we count the number of brutally murdered transgender people.

As a result, my life feels painstakingly performative, and the stigma of transgender identity can be silencing. I frequently code-switch between either speaking in my natural voice and a learned feminine vocal expression, or even between speaking and remaining silent. When my performance fails, I constantly fight to not internalize the stigma of gender nonconformity and the resultant public humiliation, defeat in self-confidence, and societal devaluation which may come with it, especially if I’m having an already bad day.

These concerns were specifically measured by the Steinhardt clinic throughout my gender transition. Two scales were used, the Voice Handicap Index (VHI-10), a scale commonly used to measure impairment for people with voice disorders, and the Trans Woman Voice Questionnaire (TWQV), a scale developed to specifically look at the voice concerns of transfeminine speakers. I scored a 68 on the VHI-10 in June 2020, which ranges from 0-120.  Scores over 60 on the VHI-10 indicate severe impairment, as seen with patients with vocal cord paralysis or severe vocal fold scarring.1 My areas of highest disability were noted in the questions: “I find other people don’t understand my voice problem” and “my voice problem upsets me.” Through gender-affirming medical services, including feminizing speech therapy, my scores on the TWVQ, a self-evaluation survey consisting of 23 questions, I found my scores and self-confidence gradually improve by almost 75%.2 For me, such gender-affirming services are lifesaving. They should be considered medically necessary and covered by health care insurance on a national basis.

I do not aim to project my experience onto others: many transgender people are not disabled, by their voices or otherwise. Most transgender people lead functional, inspiring, productive lives doing everything and anything.  Many had the confidence to be themselves for decades before me. And every transgender person — past, present, and future — is my role model, as every transition is unique, inspiring, and educational in its own light.

I am privileged to benefit from the system those before me have begun to change, and for so many reasons, still requires much substantial change. We are everywhere and have been everywhere throughout our shared human histories. Now, I hope more of us make the difficult decision to be ourselves visibly and to stop conforming to a gender binary that is holding us back from recognizing the true beauty and diversity of gender and sexuality. We need more nonbinary voices speaking out publicly.

 

References:

1. Jacobson BH, Johnson A, Grywalski C, Silbergleit A, Jaconsen G, Benninger MS.  The Voice Handicap Index (VHI): Development and Validation. American Journal of Speech-Language Pathology 1997;6(3):66-70. https://doi.org/10.1044/1058-0360.0603.66

2. Dacakis G, Davies S, Oates J, Douglas J, Johnston J. Development and preliminary evaluation of the Transsexual Voice Questionnaire for male-to-female transsexuals. J Voice 2013; 27(3):312-320. doi:10.1016/j.jvoice.2012.11.005

 

“Children remember what they are taught; What they should do, And what they should not. Whom they should love, And whom they should hate. What is one’s choice, And what is one’s fate.”

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What We Are Taught

Children remember what they are taught;

What they should do,

And what they should not.

Whom they should love,

And whom they should hate.

What is one’s choice,

And what is one’s fate.

 

Children are computers

Storing codes and data.

And the teachers and the tutors,

They reach into the corners of their minds

And shove fistful after fistful 

Of corrupted files.

Ignorant and blissful.

 

Children learn and grow,

Some may even mature.

All those years ago

And all those things they learned

Will stick with them

Forever.

The seeds will sprout a stem.

 

Children are watered and fertilized 

With opinions from those who 

Anticipate our demise.

But it’s all just a joke.

Acquire an extended vocabulary,

Of slurs and insults,

As our corpses collect in the cemetery.

 

Children keep secrets

In well-hidden files,

It’s where they hide their weakness.

Their identity.

Their so-called “unholy” desires

So they hate themselves and others

Like them, to please those whom they admire.

 

Children programmed to hate themselves often meet their end too soon.

I hope you enjoyed the funeral service

This afternoon. 

You got what you wanted.

Blood on your hands.

I hope you are proud

Of where you stand.

 

Children die, wanting to be free.

Those seeds that were first planted

Have now become a tree.

With the swing of an axe,

Its wood is collected

And turned to a casket.

Buried by those to whom the children were subjected.

 

Children remember what they are taught.

Their shoulders weighed down

By the hate you’ve brought.

How to close our minds,

How to traditionalize our thoughts,

The reality is that this is

What we are taught.

Dysphoria

I creep out of the solitude

Of sleep

And meet my reflection with

A sigh

 

Of confusion,

As I still cannot recognize

That person in the mirror.

My body’s 

 

Surface area is

Disproportional to the amount

Of utter hatred that protrudes

From my own 

 

Eyes.

My ears are pierced

With rusted metals,

Engraved the words

“she/her.”

 

My voice lingers in the

Air as I laugh

And smile.

Who is that?

 

Who is that?

Who is that?

I can’t recognize this name

You have assigned me.

Who is that?

Who is that?

You tack paper onto

My forehead that writes;

 

“Girl.”

My head starts to bleed

What did you expect?

You stuck a damn tack into

 

it.

Who are you

To stick tacks into my

Head?

 

Who are you

To tell me who I can

Or can’t be?

Who are you?

 

Strange figure in the mirror.

Strange voice that fills the air.

Disproportional.

High-pitched.

 

Who am I?

 

The Nonbinary Physician Activist: “Do No Harm” Implies Equity as the Outcome.

 

Gender nonconformity and outspoken nonbinary voices are stigmatized in medical professionalism.  Anti-LGBTQ climates in healthcare and research settings are psychological iatrogenesis which require structural changes to avoid further malpractice.  Academic medicine should take largescale and immediate action based on lessons learned from the lived expertise and the paid work being performed by activist and social justice thought leaders.  Intersectional, community-based participation, autonomy, and ethical representation should be standard in all components of clinical care and research.  This is especially true in post-pandemic practice, in which historically-oppressed communities’ trust in our healthcare system continues to decline.  We must move focus of translational care “from bench to bedside to embrace,” and we should target equity as our main quality assurance outcome.

 

 Originally Posted in: Harvard Public Health Review: Edition 42 

 

 

What Does Visibility Mean to Me?


I view my gender expression as free expression of identity, of thought, of self, and of art. Some forward-thinkers may perceive my gender expression favorably, some may feel ambivalent, and some may laugh or scowl at it or have violent or shocked reactions to it. Nevertheless, it commands attention.”

 

 

Original Post Found at:

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Fordham GSS

The Daily Visibility of Nonbinary Identity in Social Innovation

Z Paige Lerario, MD, NYS CRPA/CPS-provisional                                                                                                 

MSW Candidate, Fordham Graduate School of Social Service
Vice-Chair, LGBTQI Section of the American Academy of Neurology 

March 31, 2022

Dr. Z Paigle Lerario

 

As a graduate student of social service at Fordham University, I take my positionality seriously. I am white, I am a physician, I am able-bodied, and I have had every educational opportunity available to a person born in the United States. I am also transgender and nonbinary, which too often takes a front seat in how people perceive me. I am visibly out and trans most days of the year. And because of this, most people are surprised to learn I am a neurologist.

That’s probably because I do not “pass” in society as a cisgender person and because I exist in this world as neither a man nor a woman. I am in the mindset that I do not owe it to society, to my colleagues, to my clients, or to anyone else to look or act in a specific way before I am respected as myself and the identities I claim. I am exactly what a neurologist looks like, nothing more and nothing less.

I have learned the importance of this self-affirmation as a social work student. Loving oneself is a part of self-care, self-improvement, and self-empowerment. And I believe as a future social worker, I should first make progress toward loving myself before I can be fully available to the clients I serve.

Often the societal expectation is transgender people should “pass” visibly and behaviorally as cisgender; that is, we should not appear as transgender openly. In many of the helping professions, this forced cisgender normalization erases culturally appropriate standards of transgender and nonbinary expression and identities. Although transgender people have existed everywhere through all of time, many of us are silenced by violent oppression: such as banning healthcare, banning sports participation, banning representation in education, and banning facilities access, among various others.

The majority of Americans have not knowingly had a conversation with a transgender person (Minkin & Brown, 2021). This includes some of our country’s decision makers and thought leaders (Crary D & Whitehurst L, 2021). So how can they make informed decisions on laws and policies which affect transgender people? And do those of us with a transgender family member, coworker, fellow student, teammate, or friend wish for these policies to be made without adequate representation from the communities affected? This is a time when one in fifty members of generation Z identify as transgender, and one in five identify within the LGBTQ+ community (Jones JM, 2022). We need social innovation and structural adaptations to accommodate a quickly changing demographic of the incoming American workforce.

On this day, now nationally recognized by President Biden, we acknowledge what barriers and biases many transgender people encounter daily in achieving the many successes of our community. For me, the Transgender Day of Visibility shows respect for the authentic self which I (and so many others before me) display to the world, and the consequences we have faced in doing so.

 

Dr. Z Paige Lerario

 

I admit I am privileged. I am privileged to afford health insurance and surgeries and new wardrobes and legal name changes. Too many transgender people do not have these privileges. Some may need to hide, out of safety—emotional or physical— or for fear of losing employment, housing, healthcare, family, friends, mentorship or education.

Nevertheless, gender diversity in any form or voice is a gift to be celebrated. Nonconformity to outdated binary standards of gender expression need not only be championed by those who are transgender or nonbinary. I view my gender expression as free expression of identity, of thought, of self, and of art. Some forward-thinkers may perceive my gender expression favorably, some may feel ambivalent, and some may laugh or scowl at it or have violent or shocked reactions to it. Nevertheless, it commands attention.

Therefore, I urge readers to stand out in their gender expression, today, and every day. And above all, recognize the gift of authenticity and empowerment transgender people provide to the world every day of the year.

 

References:

Crary D & Whitehurst L (2021). Lawmakers can’t cite local examples of trans girls in sports. Associated Press News. Accessed online on March 15, 2022 at: https://apnews.com/article/lawmakers-unable-to-cite-local-trans-girls-sports-914a982545e943ecc1e265e8c41042e7.

Jones JM (2022). LGBT Identification in U.S. Ticks Up to 7.1%. Gallup: Politics. Accessed online on March 15, 2022 at: https://news.gallup.com/poll/389792/lgbt-identification-ticks-up.aspx.

Minkin R & Brown A (2021). Rising shares of U.S. adults know someone who is transgender or goes by gender-neutral pronouns. Pew Research Center. Accessed online on March 15, 2022 at: https://www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2021/07/27/rising-shares-of-u-s-adults-know-someone-who-is-transgender-or-goes-by-gender-neutral-pronouns/.

 

Because in authenticity, I have found inspiration, strength and passion in leadership. And when you have these qualities, there is no longer reason for dominance and no longer room for complicity or silence.

Mackenzie P Lerario, MD, NYS-CRPA/CPS-p

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My dad taught me many things. One lesson that remains with me to this day is the importance of a good necktie. “Power ties” he called them in my childhood, often citing the symbolic authority of the red necktie on Donald Trump, then a real estate mogul. In these moments, my dad reinforced a learned cultural value that masculinity represents strength, and that this messaging should be front and center in our leaders. At the time, I did not understand how personally significant this social cue was for me. Nor did I know the same man would later write historic executive actions as President which rolled back eras of progress for gender-expansive citizens of our country.

 

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A Preventable Trauma: The Urgent Need to Expand Gender Diversity in Neurologic Health care

Originally published in: Neurology Blogs, Voices: Lived Experience

Mackenzie P Lerario, MD, NYS CRPA/CPS-p

American Academy of Neurology, Emerging Leaders Program

We are at the precipice of an emerging professional and public health care crisis within neurology.  We are at a time when the number of Americans who self-identify as transgender is  quickly increasing; as many as one in fifty members of Generation Z are transgender.1

However, we do not have the infrastructure or training necessary to accommodate this incoming surge of gender-expansive patients into our neurologic practices.

The Human Rights Campaign annually publishes a Healthcare Equality Index, which allows for hospitals and health care systems to voluntarily participate in surveys of their transgender employee and patient care practices. In 2020, only half of participants indicated that their facility has policies aimed at “eliminating bias and insensitivity, and ensuring appropriate, welcoming interactions with transgender patients.”2 Furthermore, a large, representative survey of 6,450 transgender Americans demonstrated that one in five transgender patients are refused care due to their gender identity, and half found it necessary to teach their medical providers about transgender care during appointments.3 

This is no different in the neurologic professions. A 2019 survey of a representative, random sample of 1,000 American Academy of Neurology members showed that more than 40% of participants were unaware how gender identity may impact the management of neurologic illness.4 These awareness gaps are not surprising since there are no required educational or competency standards for the care of transgender neurologic patients in our profession,5 which is in contrast to a growing body of literature that transgender neurology is an important part of our clinical practice.6 If we do not immediately begin to make progressive changes to our clinical care, medical education, and research, we will remain grossly unprepared to treat a large and growing segment of our patient population.

As a transgender neurologic patient and practitioner, these statistics are personally significant to me, as my lived experience (which I now prefer to name ‘lived expertise’) is consistent with these data. The following is a common phone conversation I have had with multiple health care providers in the early stages of my gender transition:

 

Me: “I am transgender and looking to make an appointment with [provider’s name].  Does [he/she/they] accept transgender patients?”

Practice: “No, [provider’s name] does not see transgender patients.”

Me: “Does that not come off to you as discriminatory?”

Practice: <hang up> or “Wouldn’t you want to see a provider who knows how to treat transgender patients?”

 

Since this time, I have learned that I must travel far distances to see providers competent to provide my health care. Additionally, I must painstakingly vet any new providers through online forums that specifically cater to the transgender community or through recommendations from transgender community members with lived expertise as a patient under said providers. I have found many times that those who advertise themselves as practitioners serving the transgender community may have limited or no training and professional experience actually treating transgender patients. My experience with these providers were mainly harmful. This professional mistreatment ranged broadly from microaggressions to blatant harassment.  For example,

 

  • Providers assumed my sex, gender, and pronouns based on my physical appearance.
  • Providers were unable to adapt to my correct pronoun usage, and I was publicly mis-pronouned in waiting rooms, typically without an apology when I requested one.
  • Providers invalidated or frankly questioned my lived expertise as untruthful.
  • Providers asked questions irrelevant to the reason for my visit.  I believe this typically satisfied their curiosity about my sexuality or genitalia (as this was often the content of the questions).
  • Providers have yelled at me during an appointment.
  • Providers have called me transphobic slurs, and I experienced increased mis-pronouning when I pointed out a provider’s mistakes or requested an apology.

 

I have specific trauma from my experiences as a transgender patient within our healthcare system. I avoid seeing providers for routine and preventative care. I often require additional psychotherapy services to address my health care trauma around times I am specifically mistreated by health care professionals who took an oath designed to protect my rights as a human being. 

This trauma is not always because I am mistreated in the first place. It is more the result of health care providers’ ignorance to their own biases in a cisgender-dominated profession which has historically promoted an acceptable, systemic standard that the transgender patient needs to change their expectations, rather than the provider making the necessary adjustments to treat the patient with the humanity, dignity, professionalism and respect they deserve. As a vulnerable community member from a historically-marginalized group, I take great risk by educating or asking for an apology when a clinical provider mistreats me. And I often have no recourse through traditional structures where I can insist on holding healthcare providers accountable or receive an apology when I am grossly mistreated as a patient.

These problem statistics are not just a faceless noise in a rising sea of meaningful use and required educational modules. We are actively harming the patients we intend to serve, and some of our most vulnerable patients are afraid to even say the word “transgender” in our presence. We cannot partition our patients to treat only those parts of their identity with which we are comfortable; we must treat the whole patient and better understand their experiences within a largely unjust environment.

I encourage those in our profession to join me as allies (and accomplices) and to take action against this urgent and evolving  public health crisis facing our transgender patients. Spend time learning about the transgender community and transgender patients, and do not ask our transgender co-workers to help us with this self-work without paying for their lived expertise. We should correct our co-workers who persistently call a colleague or patient by the wrong pronouns or name.

The work of deconstructing our implicit biases should be performed on our own time. We should do this not just because it is the right thing to do, or because we care about our patients and colleagues who are transgender, or because we feel shame or social pressure to do so. We should do this because we have a professional standard and obligation to care for our patients without harming them through documentable health care trauma. And in my lived expertise, and based on many objective data cited herein, we are unwittingly and unintentionally harming our transgender patients if we do not take immediate and ongoing action in order to continuously adapt our professional culture to the demands of an ever-changing world.

 

References:

  1. Jones JM. LGBT Indentification Rises to 5.6% in Latest U.S. Estimate. Gallup, Inc. February 24, 2021. Accessed August 12, 2021. https://news.gallup.com/poll/329708/lgbt-identification-rises-latest-estimate.aspx
  2. Human Rights Campaign. Healthcare Equality Index 2020. Washington, DC: Human Rights Campaign Foundation.  Accessed August 26, 2021. https://www.hrc.org/resources/healthcare-equality-index
  3. James SE, Herman JL, Rankin S, Keisling M, Mottet L, Anafi Ma. The Report of the 2015 U.S. Transgender Survey. Washington, DC: National Center for Transgender Equality. 2016. Accessed August 26, 2021. https://transequality.org/sites/default/files/docs/usts/USTS-Full-Report-Dec17.pdf
  4. Rosendale N, Ostendorf T, Evans DA, et al. American Academy of Neurology members’ preparedness to treat sexual and gender minorities. Neurology 2019;93(4):159-166. doi:10.1212/WNL.0000000000007829
  5. Caceres BA, Streed CG, Corliss HL, et al. Assessing and Addressing Cardiovascular Health in LGBTQ Adults: A Scientific Statement From the American Heart Association. Circulation 2020;142(19):e321-e332. doi:10.1161/CIR.0000000000000914
  6. Rosendale N, Wong JO, Flatt JD, Whitaker E. Sexual and Gender Minority Health in Neurology: A Scoping Review. JAMA Neurol 2021;78(6):747–754. doi:10.1001/jamaneurol.2020.5536

 

 

 

Outdated Binary Standards in Youth Athletics: A Need for Gender-Inclusive Policies

 

Mackenzie P Lerario, MD, NYS CRPA/CPS-p

Neisha G Wiley, MSW, LSW  


“What are you doing in here?”   

A middle-aged, white woman approached me fiercely in the women’s bathroom.  Her tone implied that my Y chromosomes were most unwelcome, let alone the fact that the sex on my driver’s license and my genitals were the same as hers. 

            Although she was successful in scaring me, she did not prevent me from using the bathroom aligned with my gender identity. She was at no risk of being assaulted or harassed by me, but in contrast, I was harassed while also being disrespected and publicly humiliated over a simple toilet. Why she felt the need to disturb another woman using the bathroom was beyond me, and I had no clue who deputized her with this role to police the women’s bathrooms. This trauma was jarring  enough to me as an adult of transfeminine experience, so I cannot imagine how harmful such behavior is when it is brought upon a transgender child.

            Earlier this year, 36 US states have introduced legislation to ban transgender youth from participating in sports based on their gender identity rather than their sex at birth, citing safety concerns for the cisgender students and maintaining the purity of competition (National Public Radio, 2021; Sharrow et al, 2021).  In nine states, these bills have become law (Sharrow et al, 2021).  Now, more than 1 in 10 members of the LGBTQIA2S+ community live in states with laws preventing transgender students from participating in sports consistent with their gender identity (Movement Advancement Project, 2021).

            Sex discrimination based on gender identity (including in the context of school sports participation) is federally illegal under Title IX  due to the recent USSupreme Court ruling on Bostock v Clayton County and upheld in recent Federal Policy issued by the Department of Education (Sharrow et al., 2021).   In terms of K-12 athletics, 17 states and Washington, D.C.  have gender-inclusive policies allowing transgender students to participate in school sports without requirements of medical or legal transition (Sharrow  et al., 2021; @THECHRISMOSIER, 2021; Goldberg et al, 2021).  Other states either offer no guidance, have invasive policies placing the student under medical or administrative scrutiny, or limit participation solely on the basis of the institutions’ individual definition of “biological sex” rather than scientific evidence and individual identity (@THECHRISMOSIER, 2021; Goldberg et al, 2021).  National surveys demonstrate that transgender youth are discouraged from playing sports based on their gender identity, and more than half have been prevented from using bathrooms and locker rooms based on their identified gender (Kosciw et al. 2019; Goldberg et al., 2021).

            This is in the face of increasing amounts of data demonstrating that gender-exclusive policies worsen mental health outcomes for transgender youth (Goldberg et al, 2021).   Transgender youth who experience discriminatory athletic policies report lower self-esteem and school belonging, as well as higher rates of depression and school absenteeism (Clark et al, 2021; Goldberg et al, 2021).  Other data show that transgender high school students feel less safe using sex-segregated facilities, which may explain lower levels of sports participation in this student population (Kulick et al. 2018).  On the other hand, gender-inclusive policies lower the reported risk of self-harm, depressive symptoms, and unsafety at school for transgender students (Goldberg et al, 2021). 

            Furthermore, there is no data that signifies any safety risk for transgender students.  Politicians involved in this legislation are unable to name a single transgender athlete, let alone name an example of a safety issue or violation of athletic policies perpetrated by transgender women (Crary et al, 2021). 

            In fact, leading experts in pediatrics and genetics suggest that gender-exclusive policies diminish the diversity of athletes’ bodies (National Public Radio, 2021).  Dr. Eric Vilain explains: “every sport requires different talents and anatomies for success. So I think we should focus on celebrating this diversity, rather than focusing on relative notions of fairness. For example, the body of a marathon runner is extremely different from the body of a shot put champion, and a transwoman athlete may have some advantage on the basketball field because of her height, but would be at a disadvantage in gymnastics. So it’s complicated” (National Public Radio, 2021).  Gender varies by culture and often differentiates diversity into discrete, but subjectively-created, categories.  Therefore, we may need to rethink how gender is viewed in athletics, and focus the debate on the realities of sex and gender, and not lose the facts for outdated traditions and standards which discriminate against many student athletes who identify as transgender.

            Historically women who look different have been targeted for discrimination, whether cis or transgender.  For those who are transgender, there are additional layers of intersecting identities which further prevent transfeminine student athletes from receiving equal treatment in school athletics.  Transmisogyny, defined as oppression at the intersection of femininity and transgender identity (Serano, 2007), is displayed in the imbalanced NCAA policies regarding gender-affirming hormone therapy in transmasculine versus transfeminine athletes.  As Dr. Vilain describes, testosterone is the main discriminator in these policies, as it effects muscles and red blood cells and therefore speed, strength, and endurance (National Public Radio, 2021).   Many transgender children choose to go on medications that delay puberty while they make decisions on whether to medically transition.  In the absence of a male puberty, all children should roughly be at similar advantage in sports (National Public Radio, 2021).  But this biology and scientific evidence  is not reflected in many US state’s policies regarding student athletes.

            Therefore, we need to review our own implicit biases regarding sex and gender, as the gender binary has made it difficult for any woman– cis or transgender– to be accepted in competitive athletics if they do not conform to strict societal standards of what it means to be a woman.  Implicit bias testing can be taken online at https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/takeatest.html.  Diversity is natural to biology, and there is great variation between members of the same sex, which can give some cisgender women advantages over others in some sports and disadvantages in other sports.  Some cisgender men and women have high levels of testosterone and others have low levels of testosterone, yet they are not excluded from play in athletics.  The same thinking should be applied to transgender women in sports, who present with a diverse range of sizes, strength and athletic abilities. 

            The existence of nonbinary gender identities and intersex conditions demonstrate that dividing sports into binary gender categories is too limited a worldview  (De La Cretaz, 2021).  The solution would be to either open up categories to include genders outside of man and woman or to find a different means to categorize athletes separate from chromosomes, hormones, and genitals, which in no way define an athlete or their skills.  If critics of gender-inclusive athletic policies cite the relatively larger musculoskeletal size of transgender women (which is not true of all transgender women), then would not body measurement be a better distinguisher between categories than gender?  I think it is time we reconsider how we view gender in our world, because our world is already changing whether we want it to or not.  And fear of change is not an adequate reason to discriminate against a marginalized community.

            I am lucky to be in a profession that is accepting of gender variety, and I therefore have the privilege to learn contemporary social welfare policy from diverse faculty who are accepting of my authentic gender expression, such as Dr. Neisha Wiley.  I find within social work education, my pronouns “they/them/their” are often viewed as an asset rather than a liability to the classroom experience.  It is no coincidence that social work is the profession with the largest code of ethical responsibility (National Association of Social Workers, 2021).  The dignity and worth of the person and challenging social injustices are engrained as core ethical responsibilities of social workers.  I believe it is time social workers continue to become more involved in schools to ensure that gender inclusive policies are created and enforced.  To do otherwise would be contrary to our professional ethics.

References:

Clark, C.M., Kosciw, J.G. (2021).  Engaged or excluded: LGBTQ youth’s participation in school sports and their relationship to psychological well-being.  Psychology in the Schools. 1-20.

Crary, D., Whitehurst, L.  (2021).   Lawmakers can’t cite local examples of trans girls in sports. The Associated Press.  Accessed online September 9, 2021 at: https://apnews.com/article/lawmakers-unable-to-cite-local-trans-girls-sports-914a982545e943ecc1e265e8c41042e7

De La Cretaz, B. (2021).  Living Nonbinary in a Binary Sports World.  Sports Illustrated: WNBA.     Accessed online September 18, 2021 at: https://www.si.com/wnba/2021/04/16/nonbinary-athletes-transgender-layshia-clarendon-quinn-rach-mcbride-daily-cover

Goldberg, S.K., Santos, T.  Fact Sheet: The Importance of Sports Participation for Transgender Youth.  Center for American Progress: LGBTQ RIGHTS.  Accessed online September 9, 2021 at: https://www.americanprogress.org/issues/lgbtq-rights/reports/2021/03/18/497336/fact-sheet-importance-sports-participation-  transgender-youth/

Kosciw, J.G., Clark, C.M., Truong, N.L, Zongrone, A.D. (2020). The 2019 National School Climate   Survey. New York: GLSEN. Accessed online September 18, 2021 at:      https://www.glsen.org/sites/default/files/2020-10/NSCS19-Full-Report_2.pdf.

Kulick, A., Wernick, L.J., Espinoza, M.A.V., Newman, T.J., and Dessel, A.B. (2018).  Three strikes   and you’re out: culture, facilities, and participation among LGBTQ youth in sports.  Sport, Education, and Society. 1-15.

Movement Advancement Project (2021).  Bans on transgender youth in participation in sports.  Equality Maps.  Accessed online September 18, 2021 at: https://www.lgbtmap.org/equalitymaps/sports_participation_bans

National Association of Social Workers (2021).  Read the Code Of Ethics.  Accessed online            September 23, 2021 at:  https://www.socialworkers.org/About/Ethics/Code-of- Ethics/Code-of-Ethics-English

National Public Radio (2021).  Wave Of Bills To Block Trans Athletes Has No Basis In Science,        Researcher Says.  Sports.  Accessed online September 9, 2021 at:            https://www.npr.org/2021/03/18/978716732/wave-of-new-bills-say-trans-athletes-have-an-unfair-edge-what-does-the-science-s

@THECHRISMOSIER (2021). Transathlete.com.  Policies. Accessed online September 9, 2021 at: https://www.transathlete.com/policie .

Serano, J. (2007) Whipping girl: A transsexual woman on sexism and the scapegoating of femininity. Emeryville, CA: Seal Press.

Sharrow E., Schultz J, Pieper LP, Baeth, A, Lieberman, A. (2021).  States are still trying to ban trans youth from sports.  Here’s what you need to know.  The Washington Post: Monkey Cage.  Accessed online September 18, 2021 at: https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/2021/07/26/states-are-still-trying-ban-trans- youths-sports-heres-what-you-need-know/

Resources from Warner Library


Warner Library LGBTQIA2S+ Resources

Here you will find a list of recently published books from the collection at Warner Library library, specifically selected for LGBTQIA2S+ community members. These books are intended to showcase the diversity of the human experience as it relates to gender identity/expression and sexuality/sexual orientation, and highlight the way LGBTQIA2S+ identities interact with other identities we hold to shape the way we experience our world.

We have also included a list of online resources that young people and their families may find useful.

This is a sampling of available resources and not an exhaustive list. If you would like help finding more, please contact your librarian at Warner Library in Tarrytown, NY.

 

The Current State of LGBTQIA2S+ Healthcare in the United States: An Under-Recognized Public Health Crisis

The impact of words can resonate for an eternity in a person’s mind and body. For me, I battled to confront and overcome speaking three words that consumed my identity and altered my place within the worlds of others. Those words are: “I am transfeminine.” If I could help to shield and heal other transgender people from the trauma sustained in socially transitioning, my career will have an impact greater than what I can currently accomplish solely as a neurologist. I could help play a small part in reducing the stigma that shrouds people who bravely shout their authenticity.

My personal experience as a transgender person has caused me to lose many basic rights. However, the human right most important to my identity as a physician is the right to basic healthcare. I am drowning as a patient and provider within a system that accepts that there is no mandatory training in transgender healthcare in education curricula nor is there required testing for transgender competency by certification and licensing organizations (Caceres et al., 2020). It is a system where I was trained to treat diseases with an incidence of one in a million (e.g., primary angiitis of the central nervous system) but not the skills to treat patients who identify as one in two hundred and fifty people, i.e., the transgender population in the United States) (Salvarani et al, 2007; Meerwijk & Sevelius, 2017). It is a system that ignores the scientific evidence regarding the range of normal biological gender diversity. Healthcare providers know from their medical literature that misgendering (intentionally referring to a patient with incorrect gender pronouns) worsens mental health outcomes for transgender patients, yet providers often continue to misgender patients without apology or accountability (Bauer et al., 2015; Russell et al., 2018). Furthermore, providers fail to update intake forms and electronic health records to have appropriate options to accommodate those who are not cisgender (Deutsch et al., 2013). I believe these issues represent a largely-ignored public health crisis, and they are not solely a matter of social justice.

There are over a million Americans who identify as transgender, and there are not enough experienced, affordable mental health providers capable of accommodating the specific mental health needs of this population (Meerwijk & Sevelius, 2017). This is particularly true in areas outside of major cities (Whitehead et al., 2016). The higher rates of substance abuse as a coping mechanism and systemic discrimination leading to increased joblessness, homelessness, lack of insurance, and incarceration create a vicious cycle that punishes the transgender population for failing in a system designed to avoid providing them with the basic mental health tools needed to succeed (Oberheim et al., 2017; Begun et al., 2016; Hughto J.M.W. et al, 2019; Abeln & Love, 2019). I have been humbled to be one of the many transgender people who have experienced various failures within this system, which I have had to overcome with great effort and mental fortitude. I often still struggle to find meaning, value, self-worth, and success in our society, which is not changing fast enough to protect me on its own.

As a physician, I have had the privilege of caring for transgender patients. One person continues to stand out to me because I faced a particular difficulty in preserving their dignity as they died under my care as a neurology intern.  This patient was a transgender person of color with advanced AIDS. I remember a resident referring to them as “it,” and the attending physician would often skip them on rounds so that I was the only doctor physically seeing them each day, despite being the most junior person on the medical team. I spoke to this patient daily for a week, until they died; every time they were alone. I wish I could go back in time as my authentic self and better empathize with this patient as a fellow transgender person. Since that time, I too have been admitted to hospitals as a transgender patient where my humanity was stolen by the medical professionals assigned to care for me.

Although I have lost many things in coming out as my authentic self, I have never lost my strong desire to protect others, to advocate on their behalf, and to facilitate a solution for them. I have also gained something extremely meaningful: a purpose. That is, to reduce gaps for the transgender population in providing reliably affirming, affordable, available, and experienced healthcare providers trained to treat the LGBTQIA2S+ community.

References

Abeln, B., & Love, R. (2019). Bridging the gap of mental health inequalities in the transgender population: The role of nursing education. Issues in Mental Health Nursing, 40(6), 482-485. https://doi.org/10.1080/01612840.2019.1565876.

Bauer, G.R., Scheim, A.I., Pyne, J., Travers, R., & Rebecca Hammond (2015).  Intervenable factors associated with suicide risk in transgender persons: a respondent driven sampling study in Ontario, Canada. BMC Public Health, 15, 525. doi: 10.1186/s12889-015-1867-2.

Begun, S., & Kattari, S. K. (2016). Conforming for survival: Associations between transgender   visual conformity/passing and homelessness experiences. Journal of Gay & Lesbian Social Services, 28(1), 54-66.

Caceres, B.A., Streed, C.J., Corliss, H.L., Lloyd-Jones, D.M., Matthews, P.A., Mukherjee, M., Poteat, T. Rosendale, N., & Ross, L.M (2020).  Assessing and Addressing Cardiovascular Health in LGBTQ Adults.  Circulation, 142, 00-00.

Deutsch, M.B., Green, J., Keatley, J., Mayer, G., Hastings J., & Hall, A.M. (2013).  Electronic medical records and the transgender patient: recommendations from the World   Professional Association for Transgender Health EMR Working Group.  Journal of American Medical Informatics Association, 20, 700–703. doi:10.1136/amiajnl-2012-001472.

Hughto, J.M.W, Reisner, S.L., Kershaw, T.S., Altice, F.L., Biello, K.B., Mimiaga, M.J., Garofalo R., Kuhns, L.M., & Pachankis, J.E. (2019). A multisite, longitudinal study of risk factors for incarceration and impact on mental health and substance use among young transgender women in the USA. Journal of Public Health, 41(1), 100-109. doi:     10.1093/pubmed/fdy031.

Meerwijk, E.L & Sevelius, J.M. (2017). Transgender Population Size in the United States: a Meta-Regression of Population-Based Probability Samples. American Journal of Public     Health. 107(2), e1–e8. doi: 10.2105/AJPH.2016.303578.  Oberheim S.T., DePue, M.K., & Hagedorn, W.B. (2017). Substance Use Disorders (SUDs) in Transgender Communities: The Need for Trans-Competent  SUD Counselors and Facilities. Journal of Addictions & Offender Counseling, 2017, 38, 33-47. doi: 10.1002/jaoc.12027.

Russell, S.T., Pollitt, A.M., Li, G., & Grossman, A.H. (2018). Chosen Name Use Is Linked to Reduced Depressive Symptoms, Suicidal Ideation, and Suicidal Behavior Among Transgender Youth. Journal of Adolescent Health, 63(4), 503-505.  doi:https://doi.org/10.1016/j.jadohealth.2018.02.003.

Salvarani, C., Brown, R.D., Calamia, K.T., Christianson, T.J.H., Weigand, S.D., Miller, D.V., Giannini, C., Meschia, J.F., & Hunder, G.G. (2007). Primary central nervous system vasculitis: Analysis of 101 patients. Annals of Neurology, 62, 442–451. doi: 10.1002/ana.21226

Whitehead,J., Shaver, J., & Stephenson, R. (2016). Outness, Stigma, and Primary Health Care Utilization among Rural LGBT Populations. PLoS One, 11(1), e0146139. doi: 10.1371/journal.pone.0146139.